| On the verge... |
[Mar. 23rd, 2005|12:00 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  pissed off | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Slipknot-Not Gonna Make It | ] |
Today I feel as though I'm on the verge of an emotional episode. I really wanted to see Julie today and I know that she was going to get dismissed at ten thirty for a dentist appointment, but I still would've been able to have seen her a couple times. Unforunately she woke up too late for school. So now I don't get to see her today. :( I got into a fight with Mrs. Brougham today too, she's really pissed at me, which I hate! I know I'm not wrong, and I'm sorry for fighting with her but she says she doesn't see any remorse in me, or any understanding in my apology. She doesn't understand that right now I am a blank person. No emotion, just pissed the fuck off. I got too much on my mind and I'm sick of feeling guilty towards everyone because I'm not in a "friendly" mood. anyway... going to class...or...yeah...going to class.
-Casey |
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| Life is good |
[Mar. 22nd, 2005|09:37 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | kids bitching | ] |
Crystal, thank you for giving me and pat a ride home from try-outs yesterday that was very nice of. Hope that the dinner with Howie and your mother was nice. Tell him again that I wish him a happy birthday. Anyway, I wanted to let you know that Julie and I are seeing each other now, and if you want to talk you can always call.
So...I'm with someone now, its a little wierd being with someone other than Crystal but hey things change right. I'm over it |
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| Interesting... |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|06:38 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | happy | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Hate it or Love it-50 Cent & The Game | ] |
Today was interesting for many reasons...talked to a certain someone about certain somethings and I'm actually genually happy about it. WOW! THATS A FIRST IN A WHILE! Anyways, so maybe I'll save that story for another time. Other than that had a great day, tryed out for the school baseball team, fun, tiring, but fun, have to go back tomorrow, wish me luck!!! Anyways, so ya, life is life, *building a bridge and getting over it* ttyl
-Casey |
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| Confusion |
[Mar. 21st, 2005|09:03 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  nervous | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Slipknot-Pulse of the Maggots | ] |
Confusion
Fuel to a fire that no one wants burning, yet no one ever puts out,
A constant reminder of life's cruel sense of humor, yet a sense of life itself,
Often the weapon of some yet to many other a stronghold of defense,
The thorn in our side, the pain in our ass, the burden on our shoulders,
Confusion...I HATE IT!
Everytime I can structure back into my life, everytime I get bck up on my feet and think that everything's okay, the rug gets pulled out from under me and everything gets fucked up again...black is white, up is down, left is right, right is wrong, GOD I FUCKING HATE SHIT SOMETIMES!!! |
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| Great |
[Mar. 20th, 2005|05:24 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| | ecstatic | ] |
| [ | music |
| | SILENCE | ] |
Something great happened to me last night, something truly great. I can't say what, but it was really special to me. Everything's going to be okay. |
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| This is an apology |
[Mar. 18th, 2005|08:11 am] |
| [ | mood |
| |  guilty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | who cares | ] |
I feel that my last entry was a little over the line. I think I may have insulted someone, or subconsciouly tried to make the feel bad, and that was not my intent. I am aware that I can simply delete the entry, but it is in some ways how I feel. So rather than delete it, I am simple apologizing. I believe I may have attacked some one that I care very much about, and wish not to insult or even take the chance of losing them as a friend. You know who you are, I'm sorry, and you know how I feel.
-Casey |
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| Wasting My Time |
[Mar. 18th, 2005|07:31 am] |
| [ | mood |
| | disappointed | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Wait and Bleed-Slipknot | ] |
Yup, wasting my time, wow, so glad she got over me so quick, under two weeks and already...nvm. Crystal, you have no reason to feel bad, i'm the fool not you. I was stupid to think this wouldn't happen. I just wish you had told me, (for obvious reasons) I feel kinda used now. but hey, we're not together anymore, so in your words, you're free! have fun, I really hope what you're doing makes you happy, in the mean time, I'll probably still be waiting here for you like an idiot. But hey, the things we do for love right? TTYL
P.S. Crystal, if you really do want to get together with me Chris and Jay and bring Jaime this weekend, we totally should. It'll be fun! Oh and by the way, I don't hold anything against you, know that. |
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| At least it can only get better. |
[Mar. 17th, 2005|12:16 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  confused | ] |
| [ | music |
| | doesn't matter does it | ] |
Well, today has been an on and off kinda moody day for me. It was a good day to start, nothing really to much of a pain in the ass. However, that was before I started have a certain someone on my mind all over again. It all started when an old flame from the past starting flirting with me when she found out I was single, and she's really a tease. Well, she's kinda being touchy and very teasey and as much as I liked to flirt back or make an advance, I can't. I feel guilty even thinking about it. I still feel commited to someone else, I still wear the goddamn commitment ring on my left hand for christ's sake. I know that i'm single and i'm free to do what I want, but I'm waiting for someone, and sometimes it gets a little nerving. I just wish I didn't feel so damn guilty, but hey what are you gonna do, right? Anyways, I figure everything will work out for the best, I resisted the temptaion and even though I could hook up with her if I wanted, I didn't, it still feels like cheating to me, I'm reserved. I just wish I knew whether or not I was wasting my time waiting for this person, unfortunately we don't always get we want do we? Besides that, I know that the person I'm waiting for is doing the same, we both are justing doing are own thing, we both said that hooking up with other people wasn't gonna happen right now, and I trust her for that, I really really do. Anyways, I'm gonna go, got to go do some more work here in the library so I'll talk to y'all lata.
P.S. Crystal, If ya can, and want, give me a call lata today, I'd like to talk to you, nothin big, just wanna hear your voice, hope you're having a good day. Byes
-Casey |
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| yumm... |
[Mar. 16th, 2005|07:04 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  absolutely starving | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Like Toy Soldiers-Eminem | ] |
mmmmmmmmmmm...... meatloaf. That's what i'm having for dinner, just thought I'd let ya know.
-Casey
Random, scary ain't it!? |
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| Just another day |
[Mar. 16th, 2005|12:25 pm] |
| [ | mood |
| |  don't know why, wicked thirsty | ] |
| [ | music |
| | Don't Stop Dancing-Creed | ] |
Well, hey...hey...hey...! Just trying to survive another day here on this end of the wild wild web. You know, i'm starting to see a pattern in my entries, i believe it's called...oh what's the word...BORING!!! ya that's the one!! hahahaha, anyways i need a life. Last night didn't do much, just went to Karate learned some new shit, have a test coming up for a new belt so yippee for me. Afterwards Crystal and Jaime met me and my Dad at the grocery store and picked me up, we dropped Jaime off (hi jaime) and then went back to my house. She ate dinner with me and my family and then we went on the internet to read about some cat in florida that was born with two faces, [died two days later, :( ] It was fun, anytime with her is always fun. Anyways, nothing much else than that, just watched t.v. till 11:00 and went bedie bye byes, (wow, that was quere!). So...I guess i'll just update ya lata when I have a life and something to talk about, latas!!!!
P.S. Crystal, had fun last night, call me lata if ya want. Might be going to the show here at the school friday night with Shanna and I'm assuming Beau, maybe you want to go!? We'll talk lata about it, anyways, ttyl, byes.
-Casey |
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